2 years...

Woow, I can't believe it. Its been two years since ive used this blog lol. sigh well just to catch up on things. Im still a wreck from two years ago. I still havent gotten laid or have my first love. But vee and beth tell me to just live life without a man. sigh its harder then i thought. All these cute guys i see like almost everyday but they are all straight. Sometimes its hard not to fall in love with a straight guy. I dont even know why i have a thing for them. Maybe its because i grew up being surrounded with straight guys that my heart just fell for them and not the gay crowd. I mean seriously when i was younger, there were no gay hot guys around me. All straight guys. But hmm its been two years and things are getting okay. I mean i got accepted to two UCs and i think thats freaking awesome. Beth and I argue like almost everyday. But i still love her. Vee and I hardly see each other since her godfather thinks im straight lol. which is funny since we dont do anything thats straight! but hmm two years ago Chris aka Papi was a good friend to me, but now things changed and we are just normal towards each other. He chose drugs sex and art as his new lifestyle. And i chose to stay focus in my life and try to become the best nurse there is! :D its getting scary since 2 months from now. I will be out of high school and begin my life. Im really going to miss beth a lot and vee. Beth shes been through hell with me. We cuss at each other, but at the end of the day. One of us still text each other. Sometimes i feel like i dont deserve a good friend like her. I mean im such a mess when it comes to guys even im still unbalanced. But Beth shes always by my side and tells me to just forget about it and etc. She is and will always be my love. As for Vee aka Dr. Vagina, shes been my midnight mistress. Always telling me to let my life flow and dont chase them boys. When the time is right i'll find one she says. Overall two years as gone by quick. I just hope Beth and Vee will be in my life until I die.